I am tired of hiding in the shadows and being ashamed. I refuse to live in fear and I will no longer accept mediocrity. I am continuing on my healing journey and learning to let go of my fears and regrets. I cannot change the past and I cannot undo what has been done to me… so I chose to forge on and move forward in my life. I hope you will join me on this journey. I pledge to be honest and transparent…even when I fear what I have to say is ugly or painful.
captivatingbitter 
My thoughts and prayers are with you. If you don’t mind me asking you, how is your relationship with Christ? I have three sisters who all suffered different levels molestation by a perpetrator by someone they trusted, I trusted. I don’t know what it is to be in your shoes, but I know the ramifications in causes in a family and I know there is deep sorrow in those wounds that never really disappear. I can see that in my sister’s broken spirit, cynical outlook and defensive mechanism. Others see her as a bully, a bitter person and spiteful, but I keep seeing a little girl desperate to erase her past and just be loved. I ask about your relationship with Christ because I know it affected this sister of mine she says she loves Him but doesn’t bare any fruit. I love her just the same. I think she would benefit venturing on this journey with you.
Love and prayers,
Raquel
Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. I appreciate all of them, I can’t tell you how much they mean. I love God with all my heart and I actively seek to fight against the bitterness and fear that come naturally with being a survivor of child sexual abuse (or abuse of any kind). I would welcome your sister(s) to share this journey with me. Lord knows I don’t have all the answers, but I am trying. Thank you so much for your comment.
” I am tired of hiding in the shadows and being ashamed ” … I can so deeply relate. I look forward to what you have to share.
Thank you so much for your encouragement!
You are a beautiful writer and have an amazing talent with the camera. I am in awe of your work and your bravery in sharing your story. My thoughts and hopes are with you on this healing journey.
Words fail so I sit beside you in silence.
Some days just having someone willing to walk with you is more than you can hope for… thank you for your kindness…