I feel so broken and bleeding… I don’t know what to do anymore.  I feel like I can’t get anything right.  I feel like a mess…like everything I do wrong is magnified and the things I get right are inconsequential…I feel like everything that breaks or goes wrong around me is my fault and if I were only better they would be ok…  I feel like a freak, a failure.  Why would any-one want me?  I am a disaster.