I don’t know what it is about feeling scared…but I do enjoy watching those crazy ghost hunter shows. I was watching one tonight. I’m alone in the house and watching this spooky show, having a drink and just relaxing and letting the stress of my day just go away…then the light outside goes crazy. It’s one of those motion-sensor lights that lights up the entire back yard and I had to resist the urge to run and set the alarm. Immediately all those horror movies I love so much came back to me. I am thinking of all the bad guys I’ve ever watched while cringing and hoping that at least someone makes it out of the movie alive. I know rationally that it’s just the wind blowing the trees…or some random neighborhood cat or something completely innocuous – but my imagination runs wild and I feel that thrill of fear. After a life-time of living in fear – true fear – it’s nice to be in a place in my life that fear is re-claimed. I’m not entirely sure that would make sense to anyone but me…but I reclaim my fear. I reclaim it for myself. I know fear is a healthy emotion when it occurs naturally and that it is intended to warn us, to assist us, to serve us. In my life, fear used to rule me. No more. Now I am living from ny heart and I am so glad that I am at a place where I can enjoy fear as a healthy part of my life.
captivatingbitter 
captivatingbitter, I agree, fear captures and controls us it reshapes us and we become something or someone else. I understand this type of fear, as a child and young teen I lived with it; fear of darkness. Now darkness no longer horrifies me, I actually love it.
Yes, reclaiming fear is absolutely comprehensible; by reclaiming a a lost part of you, the part that once held you in its horrid grips, you have reclaimed your own life. As you have written, and as for me, fear now exists as a healthy part of your life; and if fear can no longer control you, then nothing and no one (else) can.
Be Proud 🙂
until you wrote this I never even thought of reclaiming your fear. You know God was called the Fear in Genesis I believe.
“Except the God of my father, the God of Abraham, and the fear of Isaac, had been with me, surely thou hadst sent me away now empty. God hath seen mine affliction and the labour of my hands, and rebuked thee yesternight.”
Oh wow….do you know what chapter/verse? I would love to read that…