It’s been a rough couple of years… my life has taken so many unexpected turns and I have fought so many battles. Now I find myself feeling a little adrift. I’ve been forging ahead and fighting for my life, my marriage, my sanity. I know the war is far from over and there are battles still to come, but I seem to be enjoying a brief reprieve. I don’t know whether to be grateful or worried by the seemingly sudden stillness in my life. Balance seems to be an ongoing theme in this chapter of my life. Balance between work and play … between striving and rest … between busyness and focus. I feel constantly torn between two worlds. I know I am learning more at each pass… spiraling toward a destination rather than circling to nowhere, and that gives me some hope. I wish I could know the end result of all this. Oh for a glimpse of the future. So many hopes and dreams that are still out of reach…but I choose to believe that they are getting closer all the time.
captivatingbitter 