I hear the rumbling in the distance and it calls to me…
Secrets whisper, then shout to be heard
Wind caresses – then punishes…
So turbulent… so peaceful.
I long to enter the storm and disappear.
Archive for July, 2011
I’m not ok, I’m not ok, I’m not ok… all I can think is I am so broken and ruined and worthless.. Life isn’t supposed to be this way. I am in so much pain. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to think, how to feel. I think I am going crazy! I can’t get my thoughts together. Please help me…
Strange how when you hold me tight it doesn’t feel invasive and confining anymore.
Strange how quiet and peaceful I feel with you here with me.
Strange how I look toward the future with hope and not doubt or fear.
Strange how your love has changed me.
I am tired of hiding my heart like it is something to be ashamed of. I am tired of being discarded and disregarded like so much garbage. I am tired of being ignored, of being stepped on, of being hurt over and over again. Don’t judge me! Stop telling me I am not enough! Stop telling me I am not thin enough, not smart enough, not ambitious enough, not diligent enough… stop telling me I don’t work hard enough… stop telling me I don’t feel enough… I feel it all! Stop telling me I am not good enough, stop telling me that I will never be enough! Just stop talking! I don’t have to take this any more! I am enough, I do enough, I feel enough, I am smart, I am beautiful, I am strong! I can do this!
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