I am giving up on you. Every time I think of you I feel this overwhelming rush of disappointment. I wonder (sometimes) why I ever bothered. It’s not like you felt my love anyway. I tried so hard to love you. I cooked special dinners (which you criticized) I came to visit (which you took for granted) I doted on you and tried so hard to please you… but I give up… You never wanted to know me. You never liked anything that had to do with me. I feel like every time my heart was brought out for you to see it was criticized, judged, not good enough, too emotional, too much of a bleeding heart, not loving enough, not affectionate enough… too depressed, too dark… too sad… too silly… I am tired of it all. I give up…
I am enough. I am enough for me. I am good enough, smart enough, kind enough, loving enough… I am enough. I can do this.
captivatingbitter 
I always read your posts though rarely comment (or even like, sorry), but I always read. Today I wanted to comment because I went through this same thing two weeks ago with my brothers (only family left). I’ve finally decided they are too toxic for me to continue having any kind of relationship with and much of what you write, is what they say, and of course so much more. It isn’t easy, being estranged (even when so toxic) but, well, as you say, “I am enough. I am enough for me. I am good enough, smart enough, kind enough, loving enough… I am enough. I can do this.”
I have to remember that and thanks, your words echo so much of my own struggle, it helps knowing in a small way that I’m not alone.
Oh wow… Thank you so very much – your words are so kind! It is always my hope that all that I have been going through will not have been for nothing – I hope that I can use it and that others can benefit from it… I do not believe that suffering goes nowhere… I believe it is always useful. Anyway… thank you so very much!
Quite welcome. I always enjoy your photos as well so hope it gives you a little motivation knowing there is someone reading/viewing even if there isn’t much said 🙂
It does! Thanks again!