I hate this feeling… this vague uneasy feeling that something is wrong. I got in a slight accident yesterday and clipped a garbage can knocking my passenger mirror through my passenger side window… there was a loud bang and an explosion of glass flew through the car. It was terrifying… it was dark and foggy and I did not see the garbage can hanging out into the road. Now I cannot shake this. I feel paranoid and worried and really uneasy. It’s ridiculous… All evening with my husband at home I have felt like he was mad at me or unhappy with me… and he’s not – we talked things out and he’s very warm and understanding – it’s just me. I feel like the bottom is about to fall out. I know this is just the accident and the dust will settle soon… but in the mean-time I really want to get back to normal. I hate feeling so raw and vulnerable.
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Oh, I recognize that one. That feeling of unease that you just can’t shake. Ugh. I also get these things where my insides, my head, everything feels like a watch spring just getting wound tighter and tighter and tighter… I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m glad you’re ok from the accident and I hope the malaise passes quickly.
Yes! I know exactly the feeling you mean… it seems to build up until you (or at least I) fear that it must surely snap soon and then I fear what I may do when it does… cry, yell, break things, cease to function..? Anxiety just rules your life if you aren’t careful… 🙂 Feels good to have someone who understands!
It’s weird how anxiety can be a part of depression.