Category: Poetry


Dark Goddess


The rustling trees draw me in… I can hear my Dark Goddess calling me.

Walking barefoot down a familiar moonlit path… feeling the damp rotting leaves

under my feet… a mist gives way before me and I find her waiting for me-

beautiful, naked in a clearing her milky skin aglow with moonlight.

She bids me welcome to her temple and I kneel in worship; bowing

to the damp earth. So ancient is this place…so deep and so dark –

only moonlight is welcome here… moonlight which flashes against

the blade of her dagger – flashes to me, a willing sacrifice.

Willingly I give up my life to her and in death I dance – finally free.

 

Little Girl Blue


Little girl, pigtails and blue-jeans

all muddy and smiling so big!

I love to watch you fling out your arms

and twirl in the sunshine. You see

the world through uniqe eyes that

accept with blind faith the beauty

and wildness of the world was created for you.

You know instinctively that  joy is

your reason for being.  You take delight

everywhere you find it and accept

without question that happiness is yours.

Perhaps I will come twirl with you today –

and you can show me the world through your eyes.

Longing for Freedom


Fear blossoms in my chest

a familiar rose – black instead of red.

Each petal a knife.

I cannot shake this chill

this fingernails on a chalkboard

vibration in my bones.

I feel the knife twist deeper and

cannot even bring myself

to gasp in pain. 

I am beyond surprise;

beyond shock.  I am simply

accustomed.

Your eyes smile as you lick my

blood from your blade

holding your knife in one hand

and your bible in another.

Scribe, pharisee, hypocrite!

Who has warned you to flee from the wrath to come?

 

Conversation?


I watch your Judas lips drip poison

and I smile in polite fascination

pretending to agree.

I nod in the right places,

I make eye contact, I hope

my disgust is well hidden.

I can’t seem to follow this thread

this back and forth

this friendly banter.

I am not sure how this is

supposed to work… this friendship

this conversation. 

I am lost in a sea of political correctness

and cannot convey the thoughts

simmering beneath my surface.

I allow you to lie in my face

and thank you for your

endless unabashed betrayals.

I don’t know why I protect

you from me.  I owe

you nothing.  Nothing!

Yet you take from me…

day after day you diminish me –

rendering me irrelevant.

I will not die here – buried

under the avalanche of

your words…your indifference.

I will shake this off and

find re-birth in the flame

of your disapproval.

 

 

Siren


There’s something out there that is calling to me. 

I hear the voice clearly – haunting – chilling-alluring.

I long to follow… but I am so afraid.

It whispers, teases, shouts – and still I stand-

frozen and impotent.

When I break free of this I will run blindly

into that tantalizing music of freedom

and find my laughter waiting for me there.

Distant Thunder


I hear the rumbling in the distance and it calls to me…

Secrets whisper, then shout to be heard

Wind caresses – then punishes…

So turbulent… so peaceful.

I long to enter the storm and disappear.

The Offering


I come to you with my offering

arms full – eyes brimming…

but as I pour out my love

it turns to sand… my tears

to dust… and I realize

I have nothing to offer.

No oil, no myrhh…

I come to you empty-

begging to be filled.

 

 

For my Husband


Unbidden, thoughts of you crowd my mind…

I cannot elude your smile,

your voice.

I feel myelf slowly consumed by you

as I seek a more intimate

connection.

I wish to bond to you, to mold myself

completely to your skin, your heart

your spirit.

I seek to lose myself in your wonderment

your love, your passion and

wild goodness.

I want at once to be your child, wife,

mother, lover, teacher and

devotee.

I want to worship at your alter in a

pagan ritual of lust and sex

and blood.

I approach idolatry in my

devotion to you. May God

forgive me.

I fear I cannot escape this – but more

still – I fear I shall choose

to abide.

 

Terrified


I can feel you slipping away from me

feel your warmth fade to nothing…

please don’t leave me here.

I cannot bear this.

Realm of the Unspoken


So many unspoken words…

I refuse to let them haunt me.

I don’t know what to say here

I have no comfort to offer…

this pain is overwhelming.

Numbness would be nice.